Really it's because I've become a traitor and moved over to Vox. (http://katherinenichole.vox.com)
I moved feeling that I needed a fresh start because there's too much stuff tangled up with livejournal and I want to leave it behind somewhat. I will still post here occassionally, but really more eventful things will be over there.

Yesterday was simply wonderful!

Sandra is in town for one last visit before going back to Germany, so after meeting her for a drink on Thursday, I suggested going to see Rory Gene Production's staging of Shakespeare's Twelfth Night. It was really important to me because my friend started this company and I missed the first play, which is going to be put on during a summer festival, so I'll be able to *hopefully* go again.

So, we decided on to go to Austin on Sunday to see the play. We started the day with lunch in San Marcos, then walked around SoCo in Austin were I splurged on a ring and a pair of earrings. After doing some shopping (Sandra got a beautiful blue dress! :-D) we met Amber and Phillip for a drink and then went to ToyJoy to look around. After doing some looking there and a little shopping at the Buffalo Exchange, we headed to the theater and watched the show which was brilliant. I highly recommend it. I loved that they actually put the songs to music instead of just a cappella or leaving them out. After a quick chat with Rory and a promise to make plans for this coming weekend, we had something for dinner at Kerbey Lane and headed home. I fell into bed at around 1:50 and didn't want to get up this morning.

I really want to find a different job, one that I'm excited about going to in the morning, but I'm torn between doing it now and commuting or having to leave to soon, and the option of just waiting till we move in November. On the move I really hope it is both of us and not just me and the cat. I sure it will be, but I'm still worried. I always worry though, about everything. This is nothing new.



Oh well, must return to the humdrumness of my current situation.



P.S. I'm wondering how to become a professional traveler without doing anything illegal...

Mommy,

Because you would not listen to me when I brought up the subject last week, and you refuse to listen to me when I talk about it any other time and you push it off as me just "having to learn," I'm writing you this letter. I am not happy. I am not happy because of the situation I have been put in because of this job. I know the money is good, and this job gives me an opportunity to get into a good field. I just feel that it is going nowhere (you said yourself Di doesn't give raises), and true I don't get in trouble for overtime like I did at my last job, but that's because DI doesn't pay overtime(she said it herself).

The following is everything that I want to say to you, but you refuse to listen to:


1. Location: It's a 2 and 1/2 hour drive south from my HOME in San Antonio, in Alice Texas. To be more persice it is about 9 mile North of Alice in the middle of nowhere, that's just the ranch. The office it self is located behind the horse stables and training rings, through the back gate. Now the office is a 3 room steel building with insufficient heat, very bad plumbing (the toliet won't flush and has only really worked properly since I started here at the end of October), and the electricity...let's just say the breaker switch gets flip happy sometimes.

2. Di: I really do like my boss as a person, but I can't work with her as an employee. She's fun and funny and lots of fun to hang out with, but I just cannot work with her. She creates a situation of high stress, and I can never do anything right. I'm not a mind reader, I can't do something unless she tell me the whole thing. I don't know what she's going to say before she begins to say it and then doesn't finish.
First off, the reason I am in Alice is because Di's in Houston, but wants to keep the business in Alice because of her clients here. I can see the reasoning, really I can. The only thing is, she's hardly EVER here, as in she's in Alice right now, but won't be here for much longer, or she says she's coming and never does. I didn't even see her till I drove to Houston the Sunday before Thanksgiving to set up the computer in the office she's setting up out there. This is not okay for me.
Second, Di's a sales person through and through, and I came to work with her with the impression that I would be able to do sales calls and marketing for her. She has made no movement towards this ends, so what do I do? I sort the mail, answer the phones, receive faxes, make invoices and pass along request for quotes. I'm a middleman. I can't do the quotes because I don't know the prices, who to go to to get the parts if we don't have them, etc. etc., so I basically pass along all information to her and Evie.
Third, and probably the biggest point of contention, is I was told GOING INTO this that I would be able to work from home in SAN ANTONIO, most of the week and go out to Alice for 2-3 days, once I got everything organized and got myself situatued. Well that isn't going to happen, because she said she only wanted me to do that if there's an emergency and I can't go to Alice or Houston(where ever she wants me to be at the time). Now Di is the kind of person that when she says something, she means it, and you know that, meaning that I will NEVER work from home, and that makes me inexplicably sad, frustrated, and angry.
Finally, she is assuming that I will be doing this for the long haul. I can't. If Rob gets moved somewhere farther afeild, I REFUSE to stay here without him. I REFUSE to move away from him just to stay with this job.

3. The Economics: I am currently paying about 1/4 of the money I earn (assuming I'm here all 40 hours each week) for rent and bills on an apartment I only occupy between 8 and 10 days a month. I spend around 250-300 dollars on gas to travel between Alice and San Antonio and Corpus Christi (where I am staying because I am not comfortable staying out in the middle of nowhere by myself). Also I have put over 10,500 mile on my brand new car, and I've only been driving it since June.

4. Mental Health: This situation has put me into a state where I would rather kill myself than stay with this job. If it weren't for Rob I would, simply because my mother would rather yell at me and defend her client (my boss) than listen to what I have to say and see the toll this whole thing is taking on me. I miss my home, I miss my fiance, I miss my cat and my own bed. Also I feel like a total failure, I live in the 7th largest city in the country and I couldn't find a good job there. I have two degrees for Christ sake, and while my last one wasn't the best at least I was around other people my own age and I wasn't stuck out in the middle of nowhere all alone.

GOD DAMN IT! I want you to be my mother, not the financial advisor/CPA to my boss, I wish you would just listen and understand. I wish you would just step into my view point and see where I am coming from.

On that note, when you was lecturing me about this (while I was crying mind you) you mentioned how you were seeing daddy when you were in Austin going to UT, how you would have to travel for work, that I should be used to the long distance and at least I get to see Rob on the weekend, and then you accused Rob of influencing me to explain away me wanting to go home (which you seem to do every chance you get).

1.) Rob and I did the long distance thing for a YEAR only seeing each other every 8 to 10 weeks and it was torture, absolutely, but we did it. We decided to move in together so we wouldn't have to do that any more. He got a job in San Antonio, so I moved there. If he had gotten a job in Florida, Nevada or hell, even ALASKA, I would have moved there. Not because he forced me to, because I wanted to. I feel that it is completely unfair to both of us for him to have moved her to be WITH ME and I'm now in a situation where I'm not there. This is not an idea he put in my head, it is something that I truely feel.

2.) Yes, you had to go to Laredo and Houston for work, but they were for days at a time. You didn't spend whole weeks, week after week in those places. You went for days and then got to come HOME to your bed, to the space where you felt comfortable and were able to unwind. Now you're able to go home every evening and unwind and be in that space with your family and your pets. I can't. When I stay out in Alice, I can't unwind because it's an unfamiliar place, when I come into Corpus Christi, I can't completely unwind because I'm living out of suitcase, and you won't listen to me when I make comments about things. So I have to keep all my feelings bottled up, and I can't relax at all.

3.) Yes I listen to Rob, but he has never, ever once influnced my decision to do something. He'll make his opinion known, just as you do, but in the end it's down to me. It was my decision to take this job, but when I said I would I was under the impression that I would be able to do it from home. I miss Rob, is that so hard to believe? That now I'm not just considering myself and my feelings, but his too. That's part of being in a relationship. He does the same for me, yes he took the job that moved him here, but he took it because he was excited about the company and the opportunities it provided him. I didn't make him move, he moved for himself. On that same note, he would have moved to where I was had I been the one to have gotten the job, but that's not how it turned out. I'm MARRYING Rob. If you don't want me to, then just say it, if you don't like him, tell me. But DO NOT, accuse him of manipulating me. Stop trying to make him the bad guy. I LOVE HIM.

You had mentioned before me working for you. If I did that, would I be able to work mostly from San Antonio? My reason for asking is I can't take this very much longer. I have given her a chance, but nothing has changed. I will quit in January if nothing changes. I would rather go to work for you if I am able to work from home in the arrangement similiar to the one you had told me I would have with Di, than be unemployed in the New Year. I was contacted by Helzberg Diamonds, and may have missed that chance, but I'm still going to call the woman back and see if there is a chance.

I just hate having this feeling of having done everything in my life affraid of dissappointing you if I didn't do it, and now I'm the major screw up after I've done everything you've wanted of me my entire life.

FOR REALS.

SO Here's what's going on...

I'm back from London which was an amazing experience and one that I will never forget. I hope to go with Rob there one day (Honeymoon!) because for all the fun I had, I really wanted to share it with him. So I came back and was once again looking for a job (or starting?). There were calls from financial firms and lots and lots of emailing of resumes (many of which were not responded to).
There what looked like something promising with a promotions company which ended up being a total pyramid scheme. Yeah...if I wanted to spend the whole day selling things for non-profits, I would volunteer with the United Way. Then I got a job with Wyndham as a Community Marketing Agent. Really I was asking people to go on Vacation Ownership Tours (i.e. time share, but not really). Well, I got really frustrated with that and after about oh...3 weeks, quit. Basically I can't do something where if I hope to make more than about 195 a week I have to depend on total strangers who may or may not go on these tours. Sorry not me, if I have a goal I have to work with people who are deffinately going to help me, not put up with a 15% chance that they will. Sorry, not me.

After that job I moved to working for Check Plus Systems Inc, LLP. Where I was the assistant to the treasurer or accounting assistant whatever you perfer. The woman didn't have a CPA therefore in my book I wasn't the accounting assistant. Basically I got money out of the mail and entered it into our system to keep track of who paid and who didn't. I did a few other things, but it was all for the same purpose to see who paid. So I was doing what I did for mom in Middle School at the rate I was getting paid in middle school (10 an hour). Well that lasted for oh, almost 2 months, then I got a call from Mommy.

It turned out that DiJ Oilfield Outlet, LLC. needed some one to be in their Alice office to act as office manager, secretary, marketing manager, and sales person. Who do they want to do that? ME! So basically for the rest of this week and maybe the next one or two, I'll be in Alice organizing things and getting set up so that I can work from San Antonio. Once I do that I'll be here about 3 days a week and the other 4 at home. YAY! This is the best part, I'm deffinately getting a laptop to work from, and more than likely a cell phone for it as well. The reason for the cell phone is when I'm not in Alice the calls will be forwarded to my cell phone, and that will run up my family's bill on minutes, which they don't want to happen. As for why the laptop, I'm getting something that will basically only have the business information on it: qoutes, inventory, Quickbooks, and material for running the website. This one also pay 150% more than my last job hourly, and possibly commision down the road.

This is the last job that I'll have till we move from San Antonio. As for other aspects of life, We rescued Scar from certain kitty death, so now he lives with us. We have goldfish that are doing well, and Rob is getting used to being a pet owner.

Rob and I still have our fights, but we're getting more used to living with each other. Our schedules are crazy different, but for the most part we have the evenings together which I guess is what 'being grownup' means. He of course has bought all the lastest video games which drives me batty, but hey, it's his money.

I got to see Ashley this weekend with Erin which was mucho fun and much like old times. We spent Saturday looking around Flower Mound and self touring the Gaylord Texan "for my wedding". Guys, I really think that I'm going to have it there. It's Texan, but without the August heat, so it's outside inside. Which is freakin' awesome. It's just a really great hotel where everything can be done. It's near the Dallas/Ft Worth Airport which is a hub, so getting there won't be that big of deal for out of towners, and those crazies who want to drive can drive if they want. The point is almost every one will have to travel, meaning everyone is on equal ground. Not like if it were in Corpus Christi or Ft. Lauderdale. We still need to talk about it though, because Disney and the Gaylord Palms are still on the table. We might go somewhere completely different, but I do know that we have, have, have, to find a place by Feb '08, and put down a deposit. (That's 18 months in advanced, which a lot of places want, sometimes only 12 months) Seriously guys that's a scary thing, that's when it all gets really real.

Anyway, that's all the news for now. Rob's going to be here tomorrow afternoon to hang out and then go Trick'or'Treating with Nick and I as well as baking some cup cakes :D I cannot wait!

Arrived
Hurt my pinkie toe giving it a nasty bruise and thanking God that I brough flipflops
The hotel is crap
The shower in the hotel is literrally a 2 foot by 2 foot square, but really great water pressure
We're switching hotels on Monday
I need to get my alcohol tollerence back up
It's 5 after 6pm here and we've got nothin to do.
I Miss Rob ALOT ALOT ALOT
Tomorrow will be better I'm sure

SO it's been a long time since I've posted on here, but I've been wrapped up in adjusting to a new place, new city, new living situation, new car, ect.

Anyway, I'm leaving on Thursday for London!! I'm so excited about it.

Also exciting is that I've applied for two jobs today, but won't be able to really follow up till I get back. Oh well.

I'm off to shower and get some stuff together.

I'm a college graduate!

That's right I'm done! Everything is going alright right now, except for the fact that I'm in CC being tortured by my father's passive agressiveness and his alcoholism. Anyway, I got and Ipod from my parents, so I'm working on converting all my files. Also, major excitement besides the fact that I leave on Thursday to go to San Marcos then fly out on Friday from San Antonio to Orlando so that I can help move Rob to San Antonio.

We got an apartment and some furniture (a table and chairs, a king-sized bed, box spring, and bedframe, a couch and a love seat) earlier last week. (That was an experience in and of it's self let me tell ya...) Anyway it's an awesome apartment with an orgasam inducing walk in closet in the master bed room (I swear it's a small bedroom).

So I graduated on Friday, then on Saturday we had a party, and I was going along, opening my cards and came to the one from my Aunt and Uncle and inside was a check for 10,000 dollars. That's right there are 4 zeros after that one. All for a new car, I've been looking for a scion which means that the money they gave me covers 2/3 of the amount I need. WEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

I also have money to buy a new camera as well. Yay.

Alright I'll stop bragging, the brat wants to make rice crispie treats.

CBE for CIS1323 is in 15 minutes.

I'll be okay I'll be okay I'll be okay.

If I don't pass this, I'll still walk, but I would have to take it at SACC or online.

I'm gonna pass, I gotta pass.

Everything is happening very fast now that the Shakespeare paper has been turned in.

Soooo, I order announcments last month right? To be specific on the like 29th of next month. And they're still not here. Graduation is the second weekend of May, I HAVE to get these things out.

I call the company and the person I talk to on the phone is not only rude, she seems bothered by the fact that she has to answer the phone...IT'S YOUR FUCKING JOB LADY!!!!

Anyway, she told me that they should be here the middle of next week and to call on Friday to get a tracking number. That means that I have to do all of the labels and stamp buying this weekend and assemble them and get them out within 24 hours of recieving them. I don't need that, I really don't. I set aside this weekend to do them with the help of mommy, daddy, and Nick. Oh well. My lunch is almost done and the Shakespeare paper isn't going to do it's self (neither is the Australia project!)

Laters!

So I'm probably at the most ready to pull all my hair out point in my college career. Classes are on their tale end (I literarly have only 5 more class days total: 4 days each in my T/Th classes and only 2 days in my Monday class b/c she cancelled class for today) what this means is I have to read 2 novels, The Tempest, 4 sections of logic. Besides that reading for class, I have a paper due Thursday (4/19) that I have 681 or 1500 pages written of, and a project next monday (4/23). Then I plunge head first into finals. Weeeee

There are also other things that are on my mind that distract me yet stress me out slightly.

Rob got a job in SAN ANTONIO!!!! He's moving to Texas!!!!!
I feel so special that he's droping everything and coming here for me and for this job. He probably could have gone on looking and I would have moved there but he took this offer and he's coming here!!!! I couldn't be more excited!!

While I'm excited, it's fallen to me to find us a place to live since I'm just up the road. So that's stressful because most of it is emailing back and forth and AIM conversations with lots of links and "what about this place/floorplan/area?" I'm really looking forward to going down to SA not this weekend but the next and looking at everything. Hopefully I can sit down with the person then, fill out the application and get the other one faxed. We're both worried about it, but we can't worry about it right now since we're graduating in May (He walks the weekend before I do). Oh well, I also have to pack up my stuff, find a storage unit, and do the whole subleasing thing with Jen. I hope it all works out.

Gotta go, I really can't procrastinate anymore...where is my partner????

So I'm watching Paula Dean and she's FUNNY I love her. She has this southern drawl that is just lovely and she laughs so easily and her cooking is southern comfort food that always looks so yummy. I really want her cook books.
I really have to stop watching food network, it's insane how much I've watched it in the last few days.

Anyway, it's been awhile since I've updated so here we go.
*I'm unemployed again but that's okay because I'm keeping up with ALL my reading
*The week before Rob got here I had a paper due as well as two tests on the day that he got here.
*I got my logic test back and I got 10 points higher than on my last test, YAY!
*I found out that my cousin is getting married on March 31st
*Rob got a second interview with White Lodging on March 30th and 31st, so he talked to them about getting a flight back on April 1st and they said yes so he gets to go to the Wedding! Yay!!
( Spring break by the day: )

Randomness:
The Original 1977 Tigger looks alot like Shere Khan from the Jungle book. (Mostly because they're done by the same guy)

Off to study more.

Yay!!!!

Today was my last day at The Quality Inn San Marcos, and I hated every minute of work as usual, except today there was so much dust from laying tile that I couldn't have dusted it all if I had tried and I walked INTO the place and got a head ache.
I'll miss Elezar and Adeala because they were nice and funny and conversations with Elezar made me feel better about my decision. I even saw one of the frequent guests I had talked to at dinner tonight and I was sad that I wouldn't get to talk to her anymore, but I must focus on School, for real.
It felt SO good to change my alarm clock from 5:30 to 7:30 and to erase two of the alarms in my cell phone. I did not like waking up that early, I'm a night person for sure.

Anywho, I'm gone from there and I didn't leave any loose ends, so they can kiss my ass. In other exciting news: Rob did his online assesment and is going to be flown out to Austin March 30 till the 31st for another face to face interview with White Management!!!! YAY!!!!!
This company is very large and is located in Texas and Florida so there's a very good chance of being located close to family. I'm so excited and proud of him, and not only because I'll get to see him TWICE in one Month!!!!! YAY!!!!!

Oh and speaking of March 31st, my cousin Ross is getting married that day, I'm so excited for him and Sarah!! Yay!! (Oh and the baby's due in September. YAY!) I'm slightly miffed that my chance to be the first one to graduate has been stolen from me by Adam because he graduated over the summer, and now being the first one to get married as also been taken damn it damn it damn it. Even the first one with a great grandbaby or grandbaby is going to be taken away. Nothing is going my way. I mean seriously, I'm the oldest of the natural cousins (I have a step cousin who's 20 days older than me) I expected that all of this would happen to me first, but no. Oh well, I'm not in any rush, and anyway I'll have two degrees and have graduated from a well respected University and I'm marrying someone who also has his degree and has a bright future as well. In any case, I'm the first one to study abroad, work for Disney, and Marry someone who is not from my home state. Oh and fish in the KEYS! Hahaha, minor consolation really, but oh well, my ego will recover.

Off to bed I go.
One more week till I see ROB!!!!

truely sucks sometimes...

I'm PMSing and so every little thing is setting me off. For Real. I have been on the verge of tears like 5 times today and all because of work related things. Most of them have been about my schedule for my last week which Henry has yet to change. That bugs me because that means I'll have to call out twice on my last week. Not something I want to do, but he's not making it easy for me at all.

Damn it Henry I have to pay rent and bills, just like everyone else I need those FUCKING HOURS!!!!!

I hate this GD job, I hate *MOST* of the people here with their complete disregard for the fact that I have needs as well, and the way that the idiot new guy, Aaron fucks everything he supposed to do up, and everyone gets lectured, or Henry doesn't even follow his own fucking rules when he works. OMG it drives me insane! I can't wait for it to be over, I can't wait till Rob gets here.

Oh, so I had this great idea for the last weekend Rob is here, but I'll have to talk to my mom about it, and get that all situated before he's here. I really want to get a hotel room on the Riverwalk for the last two nights he's in Texas and take him around the city and just have a nice change of pace than just being in San Marcos. Hopefully Mommy will go for it and let me use her card in exchange for working in CC at the office or cleaning the house or whatever a few long weekends (I can be there on Thursday afternoon and then leave at lunch time on Monday). I'm going to call her when I get done with work today. I also need to talk to her about having an Irish dinner the weekend that we're there.

There has been some good things happening:

*My house is clean
*I'm not behind in my homework
*My laundry is almost done, I just need to put it up and pack up my winter clothes so they can go home.
*Rob will be here in 12 days!!!!!!

It's very cute and I love it! Check it out.

My house is clean now which I'm happy about, I'll have to go and re-vaccuum and re-apply a nail that came off. Oh well, I'm going home in about 48 minutes to reapply that nail then to work on home work and do laundry! I hope that I get everything clean today! hahaha.
I must must must clean my kitchen!

So really quickly before I go to class:

I hate my job. They walk all over me, and I'm tired of taking it. I haven't had a consistant schedule going on a month now, and that's what I was told I would have when I started working there. Well I also talked to them and they said I could have 32 hours (4 shifts) and evenings if that's what was best for me. Well I get the weekend off, my first set of more than a single day off since I got back in January and I come back to a shift today, a shift tomorrow evening then one the next morning at 7am meaning I have to stay at the hotel and to top it all off, I have to stay for a meeting. Yeah. Well I look at next week's schedule, and I have only 3 days and all of them in the morning WTF!!! Why am I getting shit on? I fucking step up for them when the assistant manager decides that he doesn't want to cover all of the shifts that we need to cover making it so that in 14 days I only had 2 off, and this new guy trapses in and viola he gets what I've asked for. Now I realize I don't know his schedule, but still, I was completely over looked.

Well I've had enough. I'm putting in my resignation tomorrow so that March 7th is my last day, sorry Rob, no Jacuzzi suite, I know you had your heart set on that. I could make it Feb 28th, the week before, but they told me that they wanted 4 weeks, so there. 4 weeks. If it's not, they shit on me, I'm only paying them back. I'm tired of people taking advantage of me, besides, Disney stuff is picking up really quick here AND I'm starting to get behind in classes, something that is not acceptable AT ALL. Besides, it's my last semster, I should be allowed to enjoy the spring.

So I'm in Corpus Christi...
I told my mommy about getting married, and she's happy about it I think, but really she hasn't really said much...just to keep commenting that it's FLORIDA. Yes, Rob lives in Florida, yes, I'm moving to Florida because there wouldn't be rent, just bills and living expenses like food, clothing, and gas for the car, so it follows that I'm going to get Married in FLORIDA. I don't care that she really doesn't have any inclination to go out of Texas, but for real I'm going to plan my wedding where I LIVE. Don't even ask about my father, he didn't really react except to ask if he has a job and then he said that we would have to FLY THEM [my parents] OUT TO FLORIDA. He's really un-fucking-belivable.
I know they're happy for me, but I wish they would realize I'm doing it my way.

On another note my cats are insane, for real. I can't get over how the kitten attacks the cat, or how crazy she is. Today she was carrying a sock around as if it was a mouse she had caught.

Tomorrow we're having a birthday celebration for me that is entaling presents for me after dinner at Catfish Charlie's (a yummy fish place) and a cake with really yummy icing. Then it's back to San Marcos on Super Bowl Sunday and I'm starting back on Weight Watchers online. I have decided I'm buying myself a bathing suit and I'm going to fit into it well by summer. I'm determined it will happen, even if it doesn't it's the fact that I'll be losing weight so that I'll be where I ultimately want to be when it's time to start buying the wedding dress. It will be done!

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